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Today was satisfactory to see the least, well work was blah as usual, but after work was nice. I hungout with my buddy again and we went to Tokyo Joe's after work to have lunch and I got the most amazing sushi. It was called a Texas roll and it had rice and seaweed like usual but it also had steak,shrimp, and guacamole. It was kind of a mexican twist on sushi, but by the gods I swear it was so delicious. I was content being able to talk to my buddy too. It's always nice talking about our characters, stories, and how we express ourselves. Welp. I've got a best friend and its so nice. Glad I haven't gotten too old for best friends. Last night I mostly played League with Shane, but tonight i'm gonna try to be somewhat productive. I read a bit which was nice. I plan on doing a meditation from the book eventually where I will meet each spirit of the trees of the Ogham so I look forward to that.I don't look forward to getting ready for school again, but so be it. I have had a good enough vacation. I am ready for the summer to return, though the winter months is my time of power I want to romp around town in the hot night air again. It's certainly easier to do rituals in warm night air than it is in cold night air. Winter is my time of study afterall, to learn new skills for the new year. The summer is the time to reap the rewards of fresh magick. Tonight I think I will watch some Tv on my labtop and then I will draw. I will continue my Rp with my buddy as well. Today was a good enough today. Glad it could improve upon yesterday.

Well i've continued working on my friend's drawing of his worgen character and I must say I am having a lot of fun drawing her. It has been so long since i've drawn a suit of armour and i'm really loving it. I'm not drawing really boring armour on her though, i'm gonna do fantasy type armour with lots of details and it should be fun. I'm going to base it off a picture I found online of a suit of armour that looks like a cross between celtic and elvish, but i'm gonna put my own little twist on it. It will go well with her spiked shoulder plates. I'm also drawing her with a viking stein since she's in an old timey looking pub and inn type place in my drawing. I had a bit of a rough morning so at least it was relaxing enough to work on my drawing. Perhaps I will go watch cartoons or should I watch YouTube, not quite sure. At least I got a chance to be creative tonight. :)

Well my friend came over and we just sat on my bed and talked. It was really nice just to chat with someone and get hugs. I was certainly looking forward to the thrill of just talking about silly things like work,our characters, our parents, and boys. Haha just like teenage girls even though my friend is a dorky geeky guy XD. So glad he came over though. He fills me with such joy. Its nice to just have someone around that I can share life with because its been getting harder to do that with people. I had someone who i thought was gonna be my bestest friend ever.... but he tried to get me to cheat on my boyfriend with him and frankly, its been hard. My boyfriend of course forgave me because I stopped myself and after I visited him in Florida I lost my doubts and knew there wasn't any other love I needed. Trying to repair my friendship has been a different story. Heh, I guess there's just too much love in my heart and I want dearly to forgive my friend. I want things to go back to the way they were before all this happened, but I feel it will never be thus. I gave my heart to my friend wanting to make him smile and he replied by trying to take me from the best person in the world. Now its so hard trying to mend our broken pieces when I could have lost something so precious to me.... It makes me cry just thinking about it. Every day for the past year i've woken up to the sound of Shane's voice. Its nice really, knowing he's always there to love me and support me. This past year has been rough, but we've certainly got through thick and thin with one another. He's been my best friend through this ride, and i've realized his love is such a precious gift that I do not need to lose. I don't know if I should cut my friend off or not. My emotions have been so jumbled as of late and i've just longed for a friend who would just like to share laughter with me again.I've been quite full of a bitter, confusing pain and more than anything I probably need to do a cleansing spell on myself to wash away the negative emotions. It's the new year afterall and I need to focus on improving myself. Looks like I probably should get a new job and look into getting a license. Probably the first step though is to go down to a willow tree and seek some healing from my pain. Then I need to get myself in gear. I need to read some books and learn some new skills as well as try to advance myself financially. Afterall I would really like a fursuit. I feel like i'm just ranting a ton though so I guess i'll just look at today and appreciate the time with my friend and the amazing year i've had with my love. Still kinda down though cause I guess once my friend got home his mother started grilling him about school and he said he might just join the militairy because his family is never happy with him. I think it was just the stress in him talking but it still hurt a bit. I want him to do what makes him happy, but it still sucks. He really does make me happy.... sigh I need a best bud more than ever right now. Heh, but i'm guessing my friendship is not worth as much as i'd want it to. I hope he knows how much I treasure him.